Intensity is the signal of desperation

I have discussed this concept before, but from a different angle (see the article). This time, I want to elaborate on another example—a very urgent and important one. Hence, the feeling of “needing to do more / fix it,” or as Esther Hicks says, “to bang it into place,” is more omnipresent than in other cases. Hence, a perfect example to investigate: my living/housing situation since I moved to Dubai in February (the manifestation you can find in my articles from earlier this year, 2026).

Firstly, let’s clarify which intensity I’m talking about: the one after crossing the zero point (article). Hence, I will not focus on investigative work aimed at releasing fears or negative emotions. I had crossed the 0‑point, yet was still trying to constantly reach for 3D evidence by acting, which is—in the not‑so‑fun way—the only thing that kept me from realizing it into 3D. I was in the state of “not being there yet” with great intensity, rather than feeling it as normal, natural, and very satisfying.

This was the exact moment to be “reckless” one more time and trust (I like the word “reckless” because it reflects very well how I felt—check this video). I was in it in December 2025, when I resigned from my job, with a fragile trust/ gut‑feeling that Dubai would work out.

Anyhow, I can recommend tracking your wins because, in retrospect, they look so normal—just natural. Let’s move on to the example I want to share.

If you have followed my articles, you know that I manifested moving back to Dubai, which happened in February 2026. Therefore, being here in my city of desire means I need a new apartment. And there the challenge started: I was not sure what I wanted. No, that’s not true. I knew I truly wanted to move back to BK, but the pricing was holding me back. I felt torn in two. Hence, the first few weeks I was jumping between flats every other week—and it exhausted me like crazy.

A month in—and hence already four moves in—the regional war started. I used that opportunity to take advantage of falling prices in the Airbnb market and settled into a decent EMAAR apartment complex as close to work. While deciding on that, I also experienced an immense urge (felt compelled) to get my boxes from the storage warehouse, where they had been sitting for the last two years. That was directly – and immensely – opposing the anxious urge to constantly hop flats (getting stuff delivered meant more effort the next time I hopped). Anyhow, I could not overcome the urge and just followed it. It’s another saying from Esther Hicks I remind myself of: “It doesn’t matter if there are monsters in the bushes or not, if you think there is one, get up.” So I got my stuff delivered. I later realized that it was a manifestation set into motion last year by visualizing myself happily unpacking my boxes, and hence needed to be fulfilled in 3D—because this is the Law: 3D has to reflect the state of consciousness inhabited.

So, let’s look deeper at what that meant—and that means not looking at 3D (which is only the effect, the reflection, yet never the cause). The cause is always, and exclusively, the state of consciousness inhabited. So, how did my inner look like, and hence how was it merely reflected in 3D? I was unsure, so I moved every other week. It was so exhausting, really. And this constant moving, thinking about moving, looking for and booking new hotel rooms/flats, physically moving my three suitcases, not having my own space, not being able to get a few more things because they won’t fit into the suitcase … it felt so exhausting. In total, over two months, I had already lived in 4 different places—and I became almost desperate to solve that issue quickly and finally have a home: my home, my sacred place.

And then, the first defining moment to move forward came when I decided to follow my urge to pick up my stuff from the warehouse. I shifted. Well, the naked truth is that I just recklessly followed my urges to get my stuff, without fear of consequences, thereby entering a new state of consciousness. I had not yet fully settled into my new reality, but I accepted a shift toward more allowing—trusting my inner urge rather than constantly looking to the outer “evidence.” To accommodate that choice, I moved – for the third time – in the EMAAR complex into a five‑week Airbnb booking. I got my stuff delivered within a few days—and oh, sweet baby, was that a great feeling. Realizing, allowing myself to receive, a manifestation is a really, really satisfying experience. Nonetheless, the core challenge of having my own flat remained—and remained quite active in the back and front of my mind.

Of course, I was working on manifesting the perfect flat. As I already told you, I really wanted to move back into Burj Khalifa, but I rationalized it away: anywhere in downtown would be cheaper. The landlords in the complex I was in were slashing prices due to the crisis, so I got even more into zig‑zag mode—pricing versus what I truly wanted.

As one can easily see, those are two states of consciousness—one is “what I want,” and one is fear of having it. I wabbled between those states. One time I inhabited my wish fulfilled, the next I would be “rational” and go for the best price. I wabbled—a lot of wobble. In fact, despite the wobble, I manifested a nice flat in BK with excellent pricing, but—of course—I dropped it. I kept wabbling and hence scanning Bayut for more flat options. I also—and of course—manifested an incredibly attractive option from a price perspective in the EMAAR complex I was in: the perfect reflection of wobble in 3D. Honestly, it even made me more confused, which—of course—was the mandatory reflection of the internal wobble. LOL. I think you get it by now—as within, so without.

Now, you ask, how did that wobble end?

Well, there is only one solution to it: deciding which state of consciousness to inhabit, meaning making a conscious decision to leave behind the fear that caused the wobble in the first place, and occupy the desired state as fullfiled.

Looking at my example, my fear—maybe more rationalized resistance—was about flat pricing, hence about my wealth consciousness. I found even more excuses, like that I should save up as much money as possible to buy a flat in a changing market. Hence, my resistance, projected into other, further manifestations, and all were always flavored by “how” I would therefore realize other manifestations. However, by now we all know by heart: “the how” is not our task; the “what” is.

So, I did what needed to be done: overcoming fear and resistance and inhabiting a new state of consciousness—allowing my desire. It demanded less intensity, hence less looking for flats, and more allowing, more trusting, and hence being reckless enough to drop the topic.

That is the second defining point: after living ten days in the five‑week Airbnb, I dropped looking for a solution. I made a decision not to look, not to follow my fear, not to act, but to trust it will be solved—literally, I wrote in my journal: “It will be solved when the five weeks are over. End of story.” When I felt any need to do something, I reminded myself of my promise and returned to the state where the flat topic was solved. In the worst case, I would extend the Airbnb stay or move to another short‑term apartment. Whatever, I would deal with it then.

Gosh, in the first few days, it felt super weird. In fact, it felt absolutely reckless. But it worked—well, as the Law always does. About two weeks later—I didn’t forget that a flat was needed; I just trusted calmly—I had the tingling feeling to check Bayut while drinking my Monday morning coffee. The feeling was not need, but pure interest and curiosity. And it was certainly more a sensation than an analytical thought. I checked the BK options I had aligned to (the two past weeks, I kept working on moving up the ladder on wealth consciousness—not on flats—and I had decided: “I deserve the real deal, not the copycat.”)

And there it goes: the same flat I moved out of two years earlier was online. I wrote to the landlord directly and – guess what – the current tenant wanted to move out way before the end of their contract. So the deal was made quickly. I still experienced a minor wobble, but post‑signing the contract, I felt very light and satisfied. It just felt right. Just like it feels when realizing a manifestation.

I’m sure you can see it is a purely internal journey. The moment one makes a decision, it is truly done, and 3D has to reflect the state of consciousness inhabited. And in this case, the decision was to do less—because more 3D effort often leads to more doubt and resistance. Hence, intensity is a sign of a lack of internal alignment.

The next time you feel any desperation, remind yourself to align with the “what”—and the “how” is not your job. Be reckless in demanding the universe to take care of the how. Not fast, not weirdly, just consistently.

Manifestation happens when one feels ease and flow. Natural. Normal. Satisfied. The moment you cross the zero point, it is done. And if you make a drama out of it as I did, drop it recklessly. Find a way to drop it – at least for a while. To trust that, if not anything else, you will take care of it later: a week from now, a month from now. But drop it fully. Then watch the beauty of the Law doing its work and getting it done for you, because the “how” was never our task to begin with.

And yes, I know, dropping such “important” things feels wrong – feels reckless. And I experienced that not only with a home, but also with manifesting a partner. Yet, desperation and exhaustion are the signs to do less, not more. Once I decided to occupy a new state—to allow myself to breathe, rest, and let others/ the universe do their job—it was resolved in the smoothest way possible. I literally moved into the same flat.
I know my landlord, I know the flat, I know the contract. I know it all. Hence, absolute ease.

So, now you: Do you dare to be reckless?