Not Wanting to Be Normal
There was a time when I wanted to be “just normal.” Back in 2021, when I decided to go freelance in the Middle East, my former colleagues whispered behind my back that I was having a midlife crisis. Sure enough, I was certain of my decision – yet it hurt nonetheless. Especially when former friends were either negatively surprised, felt left behind, distanced themselves, or couldn’t grasp my changes and judged harshly. Not knowing it was merely a reflection of Self, I took it personally. For years, I lingered in loneliness – feeling different, not fitting in.
Then I stopped caring – partly because, as we say, “why chase what’s gone”, and partly because I connected with other things, like Nature and Spirit. Over the past few years, I started to enjoy being different – not one of the many caught in the hamster wheel or tightly in the grip of the matrix and its mental limitations. After finding a path back home to Source, I never felt alone again. I realized that my unique self is quite awesome. I still remember the day I said in a conversation, “I am happy that I am me. I’m actually quite happy; my soul made a really good choice [to be me].”
Judgment Plummeted to (Almost) Zero
I used to be a very judgmental person, as harsh toward others as I was toward myself. Over the years, that judgment faded and morphed into observation. In some areas, it disappeared entirely; in others, it softened to near zero. Of course, I still catch myself judging, especially when I lose myself too deeply in the game of 3D reality. Yet, when I’m relaxed and fully aware, judging people or situations seems ridiculous. Why? Because everyone is you pushed out – just a reflection of yourself. So, judging the outside makes no sense. Judging the inside doesn’t either. The only logical step is to shift your state of consciousness – and in doing so, shift the 3D experience itself.
Most Standard Entertainment Is Boring
Especially movies and stories built around victimhood. Unfortunately, that theme dominates across time, culture, and genre. But once you understand that your internal state of consciousness creates and shapes your reality, those storylines simply stop resonating with the developed Self. They become dull. Creating my own worlds has become one of the most delightful forms of entertainment.
Boldness Is Not Overcoming Fear
I used to believe that boldness meant overcoming fear. Now, I see that boldness is simply a reflection of internal alignment – meaning fear has no place in that state. One cannot simultaneously occupy the state of fear and the state of boldness. You either exist in a state of consciousness that fears the thing, or one that has already achieved it. There’s no in-between. In truth, boldness is the natural outcome of alignment – fear and boldness exist on the same spectrum, yet stand at opposite ends.
“The How” Is Really Not My Task
You often hear spiritual teachers repeat: “The how is not your concern. Let the universe do its job.” Guess what – now I understand it’s true. In fact, “the how” has become one of my favorite forms of entertainment. Watching how the universe orchestrates cooperative components to reflect my internal state to me is fascinating. It’s joyful to watch – yet, as with all entertainment, it’s not my task to manage. My role is simply to enjoy, observe, and, if I feel inspired, draw conclusions.
Feeling Is NOT the Secret
This realization was huge. Everyone keeps saying “feeling is the secret.” But feeling is not the secret, because you can’t feel what you haven’t first occupied mentally. What’s not your current state of consciousness cannot be felt. Feeling is just a side effect – 3D evidence – of your internal state. That’s why many affirmations and prayers rarely work: they try to fix the end result instead of shifting the “ingredients.” To change your reality, you must first change your state of consciousness about that specific topic. (See my other articles for methods on how to do that.)
Awakened People Are not Alone
So many sources – posts, books, and videos – insist that spiritual growth leads to loneliness, that awakened souls are destined to walk alone. To be lone wolves. To isolate. I call that a self-perpetuating lie. Of course, if you believe it, it becomes true for you. And for a while, I believed in it. I spent years in that “lonely transition period” – or “hermit mode,” as they lovely call it – because I accepted that narrative. But once I redefined what growth meant to me, my circle of friends expanded like wild peppermint. Genuine connections formed with ease. So no, awakened people are not meant to be alone.
Anything only becomes true if you choose so.
